2013..

New Year's Resolutions

1. I will finish 52 books in 2013.
• These books are a must-but they are not included in the 100: The Words, The Staff of Moses, Iman ve Kufur Muvazeneleri, and Hanimlar Rehberi from the Risale-i Nur Collection by Bediuzzaman Said Nursi.
2. I will finish writing a fiction book of my own. 
3. I will determine my future job, and college choices.
4. I will host a Spanish exchange student. 
5. I will learn to play the ukulele. 
6. I will stop saying "if only..."
• Stop regretting things you did in the past. The past is the past. End of story.  
7. I will stop getting bitter when things don't go as I planned, and stop throwing conniption fits.
8. I will stop mistrusting and disliking people. I will start being an amiable person. 
9. I will find a new hobby. 
10. I will establish a pen pal relationship.
11. I will get a job.
• Doesn't need to last long, I just want the experience. 
12. I will travel to at least 12 places out of my current state, VA. 

I used to hate new year's resolutions because why not just start anytime you felt like you needed to change something in your life? However, it is far more organized to start with a universal beginning and end with a universal ending; and although I am usually against the popular trends, this one helps with my OCD. 

Lots of cats,

-Belle

Charms in Looking For Alaska

Looking For Alaska by John Green, 231 pages

"You just use the future to escape the present."

"You never get me. That's the whole point."

"Sometimes you lose a battle. But mischief always wins the war."

"You shall love your crooked neighbor/ With your crooked heart."

"If people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."

"When you stopped wishing things wouldn't fall apart, you'd stop suffering when they did."

Charms in Paper Towns

Paper Towns by John Green, 305 pages

"People say friends don't destroy one another. What do they know about friends?" [ This isn't a quote inside the script, it's in the beginning of the book.]

"We were in the business of mutual amusement, and we were reasonably prosperous."

"I realize that humans lack good mirrors. It's so hard for anyone to show us how we look, and so hard for us to anyone how we feel."

"Someone who-- because no one thought she was a person-- had no one to talk to."

"I had seen. I had listened. But I had not yet become the wounded person."

"The rules of capitalization are so unfair to words in the middle of a sentence."

"It's kind of great, being an idea that everybody likes. But I could never be the idea to myself, not all the way."

"Forever is composed of nows."

"But then again, if you don't imagine, nothing ever happens at all."

Les Miserables

Today at school I heard the following conversation:

- You know..I recently realized I hate most of the people I know.
+ Really?
- Yeah, but you know who I hate the most?
+ Who?
- The people who are happy..like why are they always happy?
+ I know!! Like especially--

Before I had the chance to hear the rest of this gruesome dialogue I immediately got away from the two creatures, and launched myself into the closest bathroom to wash my face and make sure I didn't puke. I am not sure if I will be able to explain my feelings about this in words but I will certainly try. First of all, what is wrong with this person? Hating people, I understand to a point- but hating happy people. Obviously someone is suffering from joyophobia....Happy people are the core of this world- they are the creative minds, the socially active ones, the crazily insane ones, the always-smiling ones...They are our last hope for humanity, we can't hate them. Happy people are probably the people who require the most attention and admiration, cause believe me they go through the same crap we go through but they put smiles on our faces everyday. They feed on pink cotton candy, glitter, snow crystals and love, if we hate them- they'll go extinct. And then we will all die as les miserables. With this attitude though, it looks like we deserve it.

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-Lots of octopuses
Belle