May 31, 2013

You Don't Look Attractive.

We are eating lunch with a group of friends, and one guy, out of the blue decides to make an announcement:
"Everyone with a set of ovaries, listen to me. Please, stop freaking out, screaming, and jerking when you see a bug. It's really not attractive. It doesn't look good. It's just a small insect, it's not going to kill you."
Everyone rolls their eyes, and I say:
"I am so sick of you guys thinking you are the center of the universe. Girls don't need to look attractive all the time for you. When there is a small living thing with eight legs and non-appetizing looks walking on my arm, the last thing I care about is what the opposite gender will think of me when I scream. Everyone with a set of testicles should know that we don't exist to please you guys."
&&&

You know what really doesn't look attractive? A dogmatic male trying to assert his egregious patriarchal believes onto others. You know what also doesn't look attractive? This male incessantly, and audaciously pressing on his beliefs to be true and not trying to accept the reality.

The reality being we, women, aren't on Earth to give men pleasure. We aren't beings who can simply be dehumanized into objects. We don't have to look attractive and beautiful by society's standards so that men can stare and gawk at us. We don't have to be skinny or tall, we don't have to have ridiculous body proportions that are impossible to retain without health problems; we don't have to wear things that expose our bodies; we don't have to wear things that camouflage our bodies; we don't need to hide our fat; we don't need to put on make-up; we don't need to spray perfume; we don't need to engage in any activity that makes us uncomfortable for the sole purpose of gratifying men's wishes.

We can do all that for ourselves, and we do. However, the majority of the male population on Earth conceitedly thinks we do all that for them, and therefore impose this view onto helpless women who are prone to oppression. In the end, we have females who do not know what social activism is. We have females who have been brainwashed to think female rights movements are negative ideologies where women rebel against their governments, live on streets, shave their heads, and burn their bras. We have females who don't do anything to change their daughters' futures, knowing their daughters will go through the same hardships as they did.

The world DOES need equality. Females aren't put on Earth to satisfy males. We can't be reduced to money, clothes, and stupidity. We aren't bound to be agreeable, weak, and submissive. And the biggest female rights advocates today should NOT be females. They should be males. Why? Because we are trying to change the male perspective on the issue, and before we achieve our goals of equality through the social rights movement, males won't listen to females. The cycle will repeat itself endlessly if males don't intervene to change other males, and we'll be stuck at the same point. It's the same idea. But the same idea presented to males by males is more effective.

So get moving. Go educate, advocate, act, volunteer, write, create, establish, think, donate and live. Go, and do something to change the world. Whatever is your talent or your passion, act on it to improve the standards of living. If you parkour really well, then advertise through parkouring. If you are a photographer, tell stories through your photographs. If you are a barista, communicate with the customers. Write on the chalkboard. Make graffiti.

Social activism doesn't hurt.

Lots of owls,
~Belle



May 29, 2013

Charms in Eleanor and Park

Eleanor and Park by Rainbow Rowell, 320 pages

"If you can’t save your own life, is it even worth saving?"

"She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something."

"I hate meeting new people' she whispered. 
"Why?"
"Because they never like me."
"I liked you."
"No, you didn't, I had to wear you down.'

"She never felt like she belonged anywhere, except for when she was lying on her bed, pretending to be somewhere else."

--
This book took my breath away and never brought it back. I finished it in two nights, staying up both nights to only fall asleep at the most nerve-wrecking parts. I laughed and cried within the same page. The story is beautiful, very well written. It starts out very colloquial but the mood sets in and the reader can completely immerse zeself in the plot. It has cliche parts in non-cliche settings, so they balance each other out. Also, there are two perspectives, and I thought that really improved this story because instead of retelling the same event from both sides, the characters fluctuate with events and reactions which engages the reader. So, you have event Z happen to A and B, and you hear what happened from A, and then B explains what followed but includes zes psychology. Definitely recommend it. 

May 26, 2013

Words of Week 16

TriflingOf very little importance; trivial; insignificant
Doppelganger: A ghostly double or counterpart of a living person
Pertain: To have reference or relation; relate
Precarious: Dependent on circumstances beyond one's controluncertain; unstable; insecure
Lax: Not strict or severe; careless or negligent
Scrutinize: To examine in detail with careful or critical attention
Adverse: Unfavorable or antagonistic in purpose or effect:
Dogmatic: Asserting opinions in a doctrinaire or arrogant manner; opinionated

Why Do You Write, Nur?

Me: Beautiful sounds so artificial,I don't understand how a person can be beautiful, I can see prose being beautiful, or the ocean.But not people - people are complicated and pushy.
Her: A person is beautiful if someone can look at them and smile.Anyone - Words are superficial, feelings are not. Beautiful is a feeling.
MeWords aren't superficial, not for me.
Her: Words are letters. They only mean something when they incite feeling. Why do you write, Nur?
MeTo get away from myself, away from my mind, my heart, my being..
Her: So basically you write your feelings out of you?
MePretty much? It sounds so tranquilizing.
Her: So then what makes you like a poem or prose?
Me: Nothing. That's the problem.
Her: What differentiates good poetry from bad?
Me: Cliches, feeling, imagery. 
Her: You feel something, a connection or a disconnection. Doesn't matter. When it's your heart and not logic, when it's unexplainable, hard to control, easily changing...
MeBut I don't have inexplicable emotions
Her: You are impossible.
In a recent conversation with a close friend, I came across this question of why I write? What is the purpose? What are my motifs? Do I feel and write or write and feel? Do I try to convey emotion without experiencing it? WHY do I write?

We are the Y Generation, the millennial generation, the creative entrepreneurs, the people who are a bit more narcissistic than the others, the environmental activists, social rights advocates, the healers, the liberals, the geeks. We are the vloggers, the creators, the dystopian novel writers, and we are the people who ask WHY?

I initially wanted to video blog, but I decided against it due to my lack of expertise in video editing, the fear of facing my face, and my broken English speaking skills. So, I opened a writing blog (this one), and ranted about the problems in my life. But people mature, and every passing day I grow into a more aware person with an indefinite yet shaping purpose. Inside my mind, there are thoughts like tangled up earphones and no coordination like abstract art. I write to clarify my mind, and in the process maybe spark something in someone. Teach and educate, make people think, make people act.
In my opinion, without changing people’s minds, we can’t change the world. And what better way is there to access someone’s mind other than writing powerfully?

Lots of threads,
~Belle

May 19, 2013

Words of Week 15

Pretentious: Characterized by assumption of dignity or importance, especially when exaggerated or undeserved
Trite: Lacking in freshness or effectiveness because of constant use or excessive repetition; hackneyed; stale:
Ethereal: Extremely delicate or refined
Aural: Of or pertaining to an aura
Perennial: Perpetual; everlasting; continuing; recurrent
Gadfly: A person who persistently annoys or provokes others with criticism, schemes, ideas, demands, requests, etc.
Relinquish: To give up; put aside or desist from
Implore: To beg urgently or piteously for (aid, mercy, pardon, etc.)

May 16, 2013

What Makes You Feel Alive?

An interesting question this is, really. Caught me by surprise. I was asked on ask.fm and I initially wrote a haiku about eating ice cream in the winter, and wearing black clothing in the summer, but somehow it sounded equivocal, and as if I was hiding a top-secret subtext between three lines of poetry.

Then, I wrote about adrenaline and my love of extreme roller coasters. I wrote about realistic feelings caused by fictional happenings. I wrote about drinking tea without adding sugar. I wrote about things that made me feel alive, but they all seemed so remote to the deepness of the question.

So, I took a break, and after my break, I found the genuine answer:
"I feel alive when I see people accomplish things and change the world. Watching TED Talks, seeing videos on YouTube and reading about this era's distinct zeitgeist -- that's what makes me feel alive."
When I watch people do great things, I feel proud to be a fellow human. I know that I spend the majority of my time criticizing Homo sapiens in general, but, occasionally there are heroes amongst us who break the barriers and step up to stand out. They reach a certain level of maturity and distinction. They build new ideals, and set new precedents. Those people make me feel alive. And they make me feel alive because they ignite creativity and hope.

Here are a few of my favorite TED talks:


YouTube videos:

And so on. There are tons of places where you can view how the world is changing. Small and separate efforts, successful too. We just need to combine them to have a positive impact on a significant scale. 

Lots of ribbons
~Belle

May 12, 2013

Words of Week 14

InquisitiveCurious or inquiring
FervorIntense and passionate feeling
ImpetuousActing or done quickly and without thought or care; impulsive
ArrogateTake or claim (something) for oneself without justification
Conscientious: (of a person) Wishing to do what is right, esp. to do one's work or duty well and thoroughly
ConsensusGeneral agreement
DuplicityDeceitfulness; double-dealing
CountenanceA person's face or facial expression
FortitudeCourage in pain or adversity
SordidInvolving ignoble actions and motives; arousing moral distaste and contempt
BittersweetSweet with a bitter aftertaste

May 11, 2013

Why < I > Believe


*the following post contains religious views, reader discretion is advised

I spend a relatively good amount of time on Yahoo Answers for a student who frequently stays up to finish homework. And frankly, I have learned a lot about how atheists/agnostics perceive God. The major themes that revolve around the God figure are
  1. Man in the sky who directs people's lives
  2. Merciless being who doesn't care about his creation
  3. Scientifically unproven superstition that only illogical people believe
People are entitled to their own opinions and I respect them but I have my own opinions and I demand respect for them. If we lived in a utopian world, I don’t think anybody would believe in God. If everything happened perfectly, and we never struggled, we would not contemplate about our lives.

The sun exists despite people who claim it doesn't. Different people have different views of the sun, some people close their eyes and ignore the sun, but they can’t ever change the reality of the sun. I believe this is the same with the concept of God. People fabricate their own gods, people believe in different types of gods, people believe god doesn't exist, but the reality of God doesn't change.  

Our location in space is just the right place for us to be. The scientific argument says we evolved here because our planet is the only planet to support life, but that is true only from a human perspective. Humans cannot live without water, oxygen and vitamin D. Science says we evolved from a single-cell organism into photosynthesizing plants, into vertebrates, into fishes, into amphibians, and finally into mammals. Venus’s atmosphere is mostly carbon dioxide, why didn’t photosynthesizing plants that could endure high temperatures evolve there, and go through a complex evolutionary process to finally arrive at a being equivalent to a human who could maybe photosynthesize, or not be affected by high carbon dioxide levels and temperatures?
   
Coincidences are miracles in disguise. We are presented a vast amount of bounties yet we ignore them because we use them regularly. We can start listing everything that science claims to be the product of complete chance in our body and see how it cannot all be by mere chance. For me, life in itself is a miracle. Modern technology envies our heart, a machine that keeps working for decades. Fancy iPhones and brand new cars only last a few years, and they require constant repair, while your heart creates enough energy to drive a truck for 20 miles in one day, and in your whole life, you could go to the moon and back with that energy. Our brain can hold approximately a million gigabytes of information. That’s the same as leaving the TV open for 300 years and absorbing everything on the screen. Our stomach acids are strong enough to dissolve metal. Our noses can differentiate between 50,000 different scents. Our eyelashes curl outward instead of inward and don’t stab us in our eyes.

We have everything we have now, and we can still say it has all happened by itself. How did the world originate in the first place? The Big Bang Theory states that it all begun with an infinitesimally small and hot singularity. The singularity exploded and now it is still expanding. Where it came from and why it came, science cannot answer, and when science cannot answer a question, humans do not delve into that topic too deeply. Mathematically, everything happening by coincidence is impossible. Although, computer scientists code programs to test probabilities, life isn’t a computer simulation.

I believe, because the world I live in is too intricate to be the doing of a nonentity.  There are of course popular questions I am asked at school about my belief in God, and here are some answers I give:

"There is simply too much bad in the world for me to believe in a higher power…" 
Evil roots from humans. People credit nature and chance for the existence of themselves and the world, but it must be the doing of God if it is negative. If you don’t believe in him for the good then don’t blame him for the bad.
"I pray and I pray, but God doesn’t answer me."
Because God didn’t answer your prayer doesn’t mean he doesn’t exist. You might be praying for something not beneficial for yourself, and you might not be praying enough. God hears all prayers, but doesn’t necessarily grant all your wishes. Plus, if all our prayers were answered, what would be the point of living in this world? The whole purpose is to find God and believe in him without seeing him, so we can be rewarded in the afterlife. When we are tested at school, teachers don’t give us the answer sheets already filled in with the right answers.
"If there is a God, why did he let the Holocaust to happen? Why does he let people in Africa starve?"
Why did humans let the Holocaust to happen? 6 billion people on Earth, why do we still let wars take place? Why don’t we act in the face of social injustice? Why are we by-standers? Why are we lounging in our sofas, eating chips, watching movies while homeless shelters go weeks without heating and proper meals? When we want an apple, does it integrate right out of the thin air and materialize in our hands? No. The apple grows on a tree, is picked by a worker, travels to a grocery store, and then we buy it. The processes that bring the apple to us represent our role in the society. If God rained down food and clothing in Africa, what would be the point of us living? God is merciful, but his mercy is manifested through us.

I used this website for evolution, these two 1 , 2 for human body facts.

Lots of roses
-Belle

May 10, 2013

Let's All Judge [Literature]

About a month ago, in my English class, our teacher assigned us into groups and gave us specific chapters of a the book we were reading for an in-class project. My group consisted of nine (9) people and and only three (3) of us had actually read up to the point required. I became aware of the tragic state of our group after we sat in a circle and everyone silently looked at each other.

Me: So nobody read the book?
Person: It's not a good book.
Me: That's not a good excuse.
Person: *silence*

The three of us who read talked to each other and then wrote an insipid outline for our presentation. I returned home after a disappointing English class and taught about the Person.

By his reasoning I could avoid eye contact with someone and then say "Your face is ugly and makes me uncomfortable so I don't want to look at it." It might be true, zes face might make me uncomfortable, but by social convention, and ethical guidelines, it's polite to look people in the eye when you speak to them. So, as stupid and impudent as giving the above excuse would be, not reading the literature assigned in an English class is just the same.

If the reading is an assignment, then you read it.If you don't, you disrespect everyone else reading the book, the teacher who puts her trust in you to read the book, and your classmates for your lack of insight on the book. Nine (9) people means nine brains that all function differently. Our presentation could have been incredible, with nine people, we could have made nine-times the connections we made, but instead we had to settle for three brains.

When you don't read the literature, you are giving an indirect message to everyone who read it. When you don't read the literature, you are internally shouting "This is not worth my time, this author is base, this book is low-quality, and if you can't see that and you read this book, then you are an idiot and because you read it, you can do the assignments and answer the questions, and I will just feed off of your points, and I really don't give a single damn about this book."

The teacher tells you to read it, you read it. Is anyone going to force you? NO. Is anyone going to come to your house and wait on your heels until you finish all the pages you needed to read? NO. Is anyone going to enforce the requirement? NO. You will read it if you want to, and you should want to because all your classmates depend on you and your viewpoints to expand their knowledge. But, you may not read because you simply think you are qualified to judge a classic book. You may not read because you have other activities to engage in such as wasting your time, or watching FOX News. You may read it, or you may not. You are granted that freedom.

But I would like to point out, the world is crumbling because of people who sabotage their freedoms. Just because you can say something does NOT mean you should say it. Just because I have the ability to punch you doesn't mean I should punch you. So, just because you have the freedom to not read doesn't mean you shouldn't.

Off of a tangent, don't talk if you don't need to. Don't hurt people, and don't judge people, especially don't judge something/someone that makes a person happy. Live your life by yourself. You have your life and everyone else has zes. Don't act like you have traveled the entire world and have the wisdom of ages. You can be significant if you strive to be, but you are insignificant until you work towards that significance.

So, stop. Calm down, and stop. Stop hurting people's feelings. Stop critiquing others' actions. Take a deep breath, and know that everyone goes through different things than you, and everyone has lives different than yours.

Lots of rabbits,
~Belle

May 5, 2013

Words of Week 13

ApathyComplete lack of emotion or motivation about a person, activity, or object; depression; lack of interest or enthusiasm
ParaphernaliaMiscellaneous items
Qualm:  An uneasy feeling of doubt, worry, or fear, esp. about one's own conduct
MansplainThe fact or action of explaining something in a condescending or self-justifying manner, originally and especially of a man to a woman
Irrevocable:  Not able to be changed, reversed, or recovered
FortuitousHappening by accident or chance rather than design
Obsequious:  Obedient or attentive to an excessive or servile degree